Citizen Yoga

A number of years ago a friend of mine asked me if I took photographs of people. I told her no. I eventually assumed in the years following she had given me an opportunity to do something scary and create imagery for her lifelong dream of entrepreneurialness. Real word as of now. I still regret my response, mostly because my answer came from a place of fear and sever anxiety of possible failure. I knew I couldn’t do the level of work I wanted to be capable of doing. And I wasn’t going to give myself the chance to even try to mess it up.

Fast forward to almost 6 years of motherhood (aka daily failing/finding ways to be ok with/learn from it), becoming an advocate for those kids and myself, and taking small steps closer to my true north.. Another dear friend asked me if I would provide imagery of her ideas, her essence, and precious gem of a company. This time my answer came from a place of (again) fear, but also a bit more mature understanding of failure and hoping that somewhere inside me I had the capacity to show up, at least because she believed in me. And that even if it ended up being a complete debacle, at least I went for it and could tell my children, tell myself, that I had been brave. Because I have to tell them (myself) constantly that bravery isn’t the lack of fear, it’s sitting with that fear but doing what you’ve committed to anyway. Being brave is a commitment. I even tell them they’ll probably surprise themselves with what they can do. So I pretended to believe in myself.

Funny thing is, with every portrait and shoot, I think that small seed of belief, bravery, capacity, however small, has grown into something real. I think it comes with practice.

Which is so very yoga.

CYD-Kacee-6thanksgiving class-2Kobe-11Sitara-28MakeItYourAsana-18Acupuncture-10Paul-24CYD-Kacee-5thanksgiving class-5Kobe-13CYD-Kacee-4CYD-Kacee-15CYTT-ImWkd-161Morgan-1ÙÙÙ¬,@ÒÿÓª§o,©ÚX@ÞPPÆ "6 ™­AÎxšNZÊóÖDm[9û=ÂGƒêþF‚ä3>WÈò÷’ç¼—9ÇrIܒ‚X^æRýUZP¤ÿ$N[­u$”N'ö~ykÁâÏû„ZŽœWºšhšÀ2X_³dm¬æ_Ý{]ꌠѲ¾Êbc‹ÚÓû0íƞÖ&í(* 'ˆ~H-€@à(YÙ¬@„ iKacee-3

Advertisements

foraging october

Packed the girls into the car for a small foraging adventure.  With dirty faces, messy hair, and enchantment for whatever came. Picking crab apples as the days grow crisp and the wind bites seems so fitting for October. It’s really the most loveliest of months.

crabapple-1 crabapple-2crabapple-3crabapple-5crabapple-4crabapple crisp-3

…O hushed October morning mild,
Begin the hours of this day slow.
Make the day seem to us less brief.
Hearts not averse to being beguiled,
Beguile us in the way you know.
Release one leaf at break of day;
At noon release another leaf;
One from our trees, one far away.
Retard the sun with gentle mist;
Enchant the land with amethyst.
Slow, slow!…